Life is not the amount of breaths you take but the moment that takes your breath away.....ryt..whatever"

What about those moments that not only take your breath away but hit you so hard that its hard to breath and any tear that comes out doesnt realy mean anything.What about the breaths you take when you feel that the eath is crumbling under your feet and you dont have a foothold. When the strenght to breath is harder to find than the breath itself?Well point is... life is not a bed of roses or of rocks... and all the moments that take our breath away dont neccesarily leave us breathless in a good way... Here i am, seathing.... breathing as hard as a cronic smoker on a quiting streak... The air has been knocked right out of me and every breath i take now, in all its momentum is to understand the moment.... This is one of those moments where is very lucrative to just breath but the thing is....I DONT WANT TO! this is one of those moments where your breath has been taken away and the moment has passed... so much for hollywood endings nhe... here i am out of breath and i missed the moment...

GIVING HOPE A FIGHTING CHANCE

"I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean..... promise me that you"ll give faith a fighting chance....never settle for a path of least resistance... and when u get the chance to sit it out or dance.....I HOPE U DANCE"

The lyrics from Lee Anne Womack's I hope you dance might sound good as an ensamble but they sound even better when you really listen.. we take alot for granted and maybe thats how humans are ..... something life altering has to happen before you realise that Life is for the living and living it means waking up in the morning and making a decision about your day...
The small things are not important but remembering that big things start out small is very vital in giving "hope a fiting a chance". Not everything big is bad... not everything bad is big... cryptic? not.... read agian......

REMEMBER

Remember that time you told me you were sorry and I said said "No need to apologise, I know you did not mean to hurt me?"
Remember the time, that time when you asked me if i was OK and i said, " yes, everthing is just fine"?

WELL... I LIED..

So driven by the desire to belong was I that I put you before myself
So driven by the need to be loved was I that when love had walked out the door I still stood hoping.
So driven by memories of times gone by was I, that I never saw what we had become because I held on to what was....

Remember the time when I told you this was the last time and you told me you understood?
Remember the time when I told you I could'nt stay and you said Things cant end this way?

So driven was I by the promise of loving you..........untill you loved me too
That when all was said and done...
I spent my days trying not to remember...

The obituary

Funny document that... the one document that you will never see but spend your whole life writting....

A summary of who you were and what you were, where you were born and who gave birth to you... the genesis and revelation of what was inside but also what others failed to see and understand.. your acheivements through somebody elses eyes and seldom your failures.

Understanding that everyday we live our lives writting our obituaries, is not as important as writting the best damn obituary ever written (its about you anyway!).

Live everyday in such a way that a sentence is added to your obituary.. and when others look back the best they can say is wow........... what a life...

Something Profound

"I pray for you...more than I pray for myself..............and when you smile my
world is alright"

I have come to realise that no matter how much you love yourself it is possible to love somebody else more....
I have come to realise that old cliche's about love are not always the deranged ramblings of a psychotic romantic (even though some of them sound toooooooooo off the mark).
I have grown to understand that all that is meant to be, stays constant. Even though the only constant is change.....
I have lived enough to know that what i am and who i am do not always have the greatest of relationships but in times of doubt what and who i am determine who i become.

In an ideal world...

I have learnt that the harsher the sitaution the greater the feeling of victory after a triumph.
The harder the choice, the longer you take to make it, the harsher the concequences
If you think you have worked your harderst, remember that somebody else is working twice as hard.
The greater the dissapointment, the harder it is to forgive and the deeper the wounds left behind...
and in a less than ideal world
You live, breath and exist knowing that only change is constant therefore becoming the person you want to be is a process that you might only complete the day you die...

In this life right now...

Alot of people, me included always wish to change things some time.. but other things are just too good a blessing, some people too great an honour to know and some friendships an eternal intervention at the hands of fate....

In this life right now..
Knowing you has made a diffarence to my existance..more than you will ever know

In this life right now
The strength you have has shown me how strong i can be

In this life right now..

Your virtue, honesty, integrity and dignity have set the bar on how I want others to see me

THE LOVE REVOLUTION....

Self help books always tell us to take time to love.... to heal, to touch the lives of others and to live life to the fullest...to be our bothers keeper, loving our fellow man as much as we love ourselves.....

Its never that easy......the connection to what should happen and what the heart feels never correlates the way we want it to and try as we may... not eveybody in your life will deserve to be there, not every broken situation can be mended, and sometimes some people like thier lives just the way they are and don't need any touching from you.... It may sound harsh but in reality, in an ideal world, the revolution would have taken off a lng tym ago but as we all knw this is'nt an ideal world and the closest thing we have to a love revolution is philanthropy...

LOVE REVOLUTION (n): the process of loving ones self... accepting that not everybody will and living life with a smile.. even when theres no end in sight......